It Occurred to me

It occurred to me that this is battle of the wills... You aren't going to give and neither am I.  I have found a workaround, this blog.  I can say whatever I want without actually sending anything to you.  We are both very stubborn people so this will be interesting to see who wins.  It is hard for me not to hop into the car and take you your things and just give up on us. My head keeps saying I should do that... My heart says wait it out.  If you're not here  New Year's Eve, my head will win.  I will give up, because what man in love does not spend New Year's Eve with the woman he loves?  The funny thing is I have 2 men waiting.... They hope we don't work out and that they get a chance..... Hmmmm

I Thought of You Today

When I was younger there was a guy I was madly in love with.  He traveled a lot so I began writing a diary to him everyday.  At some point in the relationship I sent them to him.   I don't know if he ever read them but it made me feel better.  Right now I need to do that again.....  I met the man I want to spend the rest of my life with but due to his past relationships he is extremely hesitant almost like he doesn't trust me.  I have taken a step back.. and though it is killing me not to talk to him I know it is what needs to be done.  Give him his space and let him work through whatever it is that he is going through.  My heart and my head are having their usual battle... the head says, if a man loves you he would do whatever it takes to be with you.  What man that is in love with a woman goes a whole month without seeing her?.....  My heart says, he is confused and scared and just needs time.  I have many friends that side with my head ....no one agrees with my heart.  This sucks.   Miss "I am going to stay single forever" finds someone she actually wants to spend the rest of her life with and he is acting like a frightened child afraid to leave his mama. Where does one go from here?