GoodBye 2009

I'm starting out with a quote from Amanda Joy, who borrowed it from someone else... "Dear 2009 I didn't mean to do this on my blog but I think it is time to see other people... Sure we had fun, some laughs along the way,but I think it is time for us to move on. I mean, change is hard but it's not you--it's me." This year sucked for me... I saw my debt whirl out of control. I learned how bad at managing money I really am and where my brother got his habits from. What changed you asked... well I found myself with a mortgage that was $300 more than my rent, and I continued to live like I was paying rent. So I enter 2010 being approximately $32,000 in debt, with no internet or cable because for Christmas, Time warner cut me off. I can't blame them... I was behind. Now I enter 2010 with a lot of hopes and a passion to improve upon my financial status. I resolve to get more organized... I used to be. I'm not sure where that went. I resolve to lose at least 50 pounds... that's not a lot and I know I can do it. I turn 40 this year... I need to be healthy for that. I resolve to procrastinate less and to maintain a clean, organized house. I also resolve to blog more. they say this is supposed to be healthy for you and gets your feelings out there... so as 2010 quickly approaches.. I can't wait to show 2009 the door and move on to a more productive year. Later 2009... Nice meeting ya!!

War of the Word

So I have become addicted to Facebook... Like I didn't have enough addictions... Food, TV and now facebook. Zoey absolutely hates that I spend 98% of my time ignoring her. I don't know why I do it.... I work on a computer all day you would think that the last thing I would want to do is get on a computer but unfortunately it helps me to unwind. I know.... Crazy.

I'm back to being a "dear abby"... I've actually missed doing this, listening and helping others.
There is something about listening to other people's issues that
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Staycation

Well, today is the last day of my stay-cation. Monday it's back to work.. for the most part it has been relaxing, but I really have missed going to Tennessee. It has been a tradition in my life to spend my birthday week there but this year the money just didn't allow for it. I wonder how I got myself into such a financial mess. I know not saving and helping my brother, mother and step-father out for 4 years didn't help but I'm back to living paycheck to paycheck which I haven't done in years!!!! I've got to figure out a way to get myself to budget again. It worked for me back when I worked at the hospital but some how I have lost sight on how to do it when I am NOT working 2 jobs.

Tomorrow I am supposed to go to an Asian wedding...and since I'm not dating anyone this would mean I go alone.... Part of me says what the heck, just go... another part of me screams "no...don't do it..." Who knows which way I will decide.

I am trying to convince myself to start back to church.. it has been 8 years and it's time to give it another shot. So many people believe we are in the last days now and once upon a time church did make me happy...I need to get past the resentment I have toward all the phonies and realize that none of us are perfect. Maybe this week has helped me do that???

Funky Characters

So I just got back from my California trip and I was checking all the blogging I was doing with my Treo700p to this blog. All I see is a bunch of funky characters that makes absolutely no sense.. bunches of gobbly gook!!! Sucks.... who knows what I was ranting and raving about!!! Time to find a new blogging app for my phone.

so I'm in the 5th row of an airplane and the bathroom is less than 3 ft away... But it's considered First Class. Which bathroom do you use?

Men!!!

So this email has been going out a lot lately from my manager and team leads about keeping your music turned down and to wear headphones. Come to find out it was directed at ME!!!!! Can you believe that crap? I rarely have my music loud enough for me to hear it and someone does not have the balls to tell me "hey, can you turn your music down I can hear it"? Instead they go complain to the manager who sits in a totally different part of the building!!! WTF??? Just man up and say "Janet, turn that crap down".. and I will laugh and do it. When did corporate America become junior high school???? I titled this men because in cube world where I sit, it's all men but me and another woman who has been out of the office bth times this email was sent around.

Interesting....

So I've started entering the "thing to Ponder" each day on my facebook. It's a good conversation started and you are amazed as to the replies you get.

I've gotten addicted to this girl "Lea"'s blog. She has really had some trauma in her life. She seems to have lost herself a long the way. I so understand that and can empathize because I too lost myself. I told my brother once that sometimes you have to look past a person's flaws and just accept them for who they are. There is a lot we would like to change about a person. We want to make them into the person we want them to be not the person they necessarily are. Life isn't like that. I believe our experiences shape us into the person we become in life. So why are some of us so driven and others not? I believe that is how we take and use the knowledge that we have. My mother for instance has gone through a lot of crap. It has changed her and it would change anyone. I've watched it all and took the information I got based on her experiences and adapted my life around it. Some people just can't do that. They have to experience it themselves before they believe that it can truly happen. Why is that???

Saturdays

So I generally love Saturdays... I get to lounge around the house and do as little as possible. Today however, both dogs decided to get me up a 6am. That is not how I like to start out my Saturdays. I have done a little bit of cooking experiments today. I made Hungry Girl's Jalapeno Swapper and fabulous Feux Fried Zucchini... they were both delicious except I am not a huge fan of Fiber one cereal as bread crumbs. They have a sweet flavor to them that just doesn't cut it for me when coating vegetables. Tomorrow will be laundry, cleaning house and grocery store day. I always make sure I get at least one day of rest. How about you? How do you like to spend your weekends?

Introduction

Hi. I am a voluptuous woman who has a lot of opinions... what woman doesn't right? Well I am not your typical woman... I hate to shop, love being alone, am addicted to facebook, TV & reading... love to watch football and am a technological geek. They call me "gadget girl"because if there is a reasonably priced new gadget out there. I'm going to buy it. I also can not manage my money!! This is not something I proclaim proudly but for a long time if I wanted something, I bought it. Now I have a mortgage and a dog to think about and really need to start saving for those "just in case" moments. Over a period of time I would like to get my life back under wraps and start being more in control. I spiraled out of control by putting everyone before me. I have been the glue that held my mom, brother snd myself together and now that the glue has dried, it's hard to think about me. This blog is for me and about me... hang on it will be a bumpy ride.